The Two Dials
Isnatched the tin out of his shaking hands so fast it clattered against the counter. The stew was cold, straight from the can, and he had been eating it that way, standing at the counter in a kitchen cold enough that I could see my own breath if I exhaled slowly. He was eighty seven years old, and he was eating cold stew from a can because the microwave confused him, and I had not been there to notice.
“Dad, why didn’t you just heat it up?” I asked, sharper than I intended. “Why not use the microwave?”
He would not look at me. He stared down at the faded linoleum he had laid himself in 1974, when his hands were steady and his back could carry lumber without complaint.
The overhead light threw a yellow cone over the table, the stove, the scarred countertop, and the man who had once seemed impossible to diminish. After a long silence he muttered that the buttons confused him now. That sometimes the machine started beeping and he forgot what he had pressed.
That it was easier this way. Easier this way. That sentence hit me harder than I expected, because for months I had been slowly disappearing from his life while telling myself I was doing my best.
My name is David Mercer. I was fifty one then, living three hours away with a wife, two teenagers, a demanding job, and all the polished excuses middle aged people use when they want to sound responsible while avoiding pain. I blamed work.
Traffic. Deadlines. School schedules.
The economy. Fatigue. The thousand respectable reasons a decent man can hide behind when the truth is that it hurts to watch the strongest person he has ever known start losing ground in small, humiliating ways.
So every time we spoke on the phone, I pushed solutions from a distance. Dad, those stairs are dangerous. Dad, that senior community has nurses around the clock.
Dad, they handle meals, meds, laundry, everything. You wouldn’t have to worry. I told myself I was protecting him.
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