My mother died on a Tuesday in March, which is the kind of detail that lodges itself in your memory not because Tuesday has any particular significance but because the ordinary weekday quality of it made the whole thing feel surreal. People die on Tuesdays. Of course they do. The world does not pause for grief, does not arrange itself around the magnitude of what’s been lost. The garbage trucks still came that morning. My neighbor’s dog still barked at the mail carrier. The day kept moving the way days do, indifferent and relentless, and by the time the hospital called I had already been awake for two hours drinking coffee and reading the news, and the news was about things that seemed important until they suddenly weren’t.
She had been sick for fourteen months. Ovarian cancer, diagnosed late the way it so often is, in the stage where the options narrow and the conversations with doctors shift from treatment to management to a different kind of honesty that nobody in a white coat enjoys delivering. We had known, in the abstract way you know things you are not yet willing to fully hold, that we were working toward this outcome. And then the outcome arrived on a Tuesday in March and the knowing turned out to have prepared me for nothing at all.
My father had died six years before her.
Heart attack, sudden, the kind that gives no warning and asks for no permission. He was sixty-one and healthy by every measure his annual physical had recorded and then one evening he was gone, and my mother and I had spent six years learning how to be a family of two after spending our whole lives as three.
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