The night my husband Ethan collapsed in our kitchen, I thought he had simply fainted from exhaustion. He had been working without stopping for weeks, trying to keep his business alive while still being present for our daughter Lily, still making her breakfast, still reading to her at night, still finding the energy to ask her about her day even when I could see how depleted he was. But when I saw how still he was, how his hand slipped from mine without any response at all, I knew something was terribly wrong.
I called for the ambulance with one hand and held his with the other and kept telling him I was right there, kept talking to him, because that felt like the only thing I could do. Lily stood in the doorway in her pajamas, her eyes wide, and I told her to stay back and that Daddy was going to be okay. I am not sure I believed it even as I said it.
At the hospital, the doctors tried everything. I know they did. I watched them work and I stood in the hallway and I pressed my back against the cold wall and I breathed in and out and told myself that Ethan was strong and healthy and that people survived things like this every day.
But it was too late. They came to me in a small room off the corridor, two doctors and a nurse, and they told me gently and carefully that it had been sudden, something that couldn’t have been prevented, something that had simply happened the way terrible things sometimes do without warning or reason. I remember sitting outside the ICU afterward, shaking, my phone in my hand, still trying to process the information my mind refused to fully absorb, when I called my parents.
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