What the Cameras Saw
The beach house in the early morning has a particular quality of silence that I have never been able to fully describe to anyone who has not experienced it, because the silence is not actually silent. There is the water, constant and rhythmic in its own category of sound, the kind that your ears eventually stop registering as noise and begin processing as texture, as background, as the hum beneath everything else. There are birds starting their morning conversations.
There is wind, sometimes, moving through the sea grass along the dune. It is a full and present silence, the silence of something alive rather than absent, and for a long time it was the thing I came here specifically to find. I had been awake for twenty minutes when Leo called.
Not because something had woken me; I had developed, in recent months, the habit of waking early whether I intended to or not, in the particular way of people who are carrying something they have not fully named yet and whose bodies have decided to process it in the pre-dawn hours when the rest of the world is unavailable as distraction. I had been standing on the deck with coffee, watching the light change over the water, which changes slowly and then quickly, the grey becoming blue becoming a color that does not have an adequate name in English, and I had been thinking, as I had been thinking for several weeks, about the tea. The tea is where it started, or where I started to notice, which may not be the same as where it started.
I should explain who I am before I explain what happened, because who I am bears on why it happened and why I was able to respond to it the way I did. My name is Rose. I am sixty-seven years old.
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