The notification lit up my phone screen at 0600 hours, the harsh glow cutting through the pre-dawn darkness of my barracks room. Outside, Germany was wrapped in that particular kind of December cold that seeps through walls and windows, the kind that makes you question every life decision that brought you to this exact moment. I’d been awake for an hour already—old habit from deployment—staring at the ceiling and mentally rehearsing conversations I’d been waiting three years to have.
My duffel bag sat packed in the corner, the same worn canvas that had traveled with me through two tours in places whose names I still couldn’t say without my jaw tightening.
Inside were gifts I’d spent weeks choosing: a hand-embroidered scarf for Mom that I’d found at a Christmas market in Heidelberg, a vintage keychain shaped like Oregon for Kayla, and for Uncle Thomas, an antique music box that played something hauntingly familiar. My plane ticket was folded in my back pocket, creased from being checked and rechecked, as if the paper might dissolve if I didn’t keep proving it was real.
Three years. One thousand and ninety-five days since I’d walked through the front door of the house in Oregon with its chipped porch paint and the kitchen floor that creaked in exactly seventeen places.
Three years since I’d felt like anyone there was counting the days until I came back.
But this Christmas was going to be different. I’d convinced myself of that through months of silence, through unanswered calls and one-word text responses. This time, I’d be there in person, impossible to ignore, undeniable proof that I was still part of the family.
Then my phone buzzed.
I picked it up expecting a flight update or maybe a message from one of the guys asking about weekend plans.
Instead, I saw her name. Just that—”Mom”—in plain letters that somehow looked wrong on my screen.
I opened it.
The world didn’t end immediately. It should have, but it didn’t.
The barracks kept standing. The radiator kept clanking. Outside, someone was doing morning PT, their boots crunching through the frost.
Everything continued exactly as it had been, except now everything was different.
The message was short. Efficient, even. The kind of text you send when you’ve already made up your mind and you’re just informing someone of the decision.
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