Holiday lunch always looked good in photographs. If you had glanced in from the outside that afternoon—through the dining room window with its tasteful curtain pulled just far enough to frame the scene—you would have seen exactly what people want to believe their family looks like: a long polished table with a soft runner down the center, a scatter of candles that made the crystal glow amber, a golden-brown turkey carved with geometric precision, bowls of mashed potatoes and glazed carrots and rolls in a basket lined with a linen napkin that had been ironed that morning by a woman who ironed napkins the way other people locked their doors, as a matter of protection.
My mother staged holiday meals the way other people stage real estate listings—every surface considered, every angle accounted for, every imperfection concealed or removed before the audience arrived. The air smelled like cinnamon and roasted garlic and the faint chemical tang of the cleaner she’d used an hour before we sat down. Music played low in the background, some acoustic playlist of covers that never startled anyone, never offended, never demanded attention. Everything was muted, controlled, curated.
I remember thinking, as I passed the basket of rolls to my older brother Steven, that the room felt like a set. And we were all hitting our marks.
“More potatoes?” my mother asked, smiling, her voice a shade too bright—the brightness of a bulb running at higher wattage than it was rated for.
“Sure,” my father said, still arranging his napkin on his lap with the slow precision of a man who has learned that small, manageable tasks are the safest place to put his attention.
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